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My HOLY SHIT Moment

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For days, years, decades … I’d cruise through life knowing I had as much time in the world to explore, travel, experience new things and make mistakes … Make mistakes … make mistakes?!

It was a cold or maybe really hot day in New York City about two months ago when it dawned on me that I couldn’t keep making the same mistakes.  In my twenties I could make late payments on my TMobile bill only to face a light slap on the hand and and a late fee of $4.95.  I could speed and get a traffic ticket with yet another slap on the hand and a fee of $150 – $300.  I could be late to almost anything and have my tardiness covered by a really good friend who got there on time. Everything was recoverable and fixable.

However, how does one make up for lost time and years that I will never be able to get back from long term bad decisions?

One day I was walking down a New York City street only to realize I was walking down the wrong street.  Not a big deal – I can always turn around make a quick right and then left and be back on track within 5 minutes of the unplanned detour.

This isn’t always the case with some of the decisions we make in life.  As women we can make the wrong decision for a years or decades and this is where my “holy shit” moment came!  There are some mistakes I’ve made in my life where the repercussion is well beyond a hand slap.  For some of these mistakes I can’t get back the years and years of pointless tears or using my “naive” ways as an excuse for it will only keep me in the cycle for years to come.

It was time to make better decisions.

Have you ever had your subconscious, or god or the universe or whatever higher being (you believe in)  try to get through to you and you be to scared to take the leap or make that hard decision?  The message is in your dreams and instances begin to occur on a regular basis  that notify you that are going the wrong way.  I’ve been through this several times in my life touching various life related topics and I’m learning that you can’t IGNORE your journey.  Have you noticed that when we move off course “shit just goes wrong” and nothing goes smoothly.  There are a million “do no proceed” “wrong way” and screaming red flags that throw itself in front of your vehicle at every moment and as relentlessly stubborn humans we ignore every sign  because we think we know better or we’re to scared to take the leap.

It’s time to make better decisions. Recently I’ve surrendered to some of my own painful patterns and when I did … the universe started to give me what I needed to fill the void, overpower the ego and keep me moving in the direction of making better / healthier decisions.   It’s still really hard to break patterns and the emotional process is very up and down but it feels good to know that your making decisions that are in alignment with your values, goals, worth and it’s empowering.

My “holy shit” moment made me realize that I didn’t want to waste my life or time doing anything that no longer serves me or my purpose.  Time is precious and it can filled doing things that bring you happiness and abundance so why waste it?  I want to use this year to create new friendships,  unforgettable memories, mastering what I love to do, learning to cook, exploring New York, laughing, eating, dancing and being the best Me I can be …

That’s when I’m the happiest, most fulfilled and I can offer the most to people in my surroundings.  Cheers to 2012.
My top 10 moments of 2011 –

1:   Re-uniting with my best friend Monica Payne 🙂
2:  Going to Prince’s concert – VIP style, hanging with my long time friends Rashida, Monica and sister Shari and dancing on stage with Prince – That was a farewell I’ll never forget. Thank you Rashida!
3:  Launching Unite for Green at NBA All Star in Los Angeles in collaboration.
4:  Moving to New York City (period) and ALL the growth that came with that decision.
5:  My farewell party in LA and SF – Thank you HC and Franboogie and Miguel E.
6:  Creating new friendships in NYC – I feel pretty darn lucky to have reconnected/connected with some amazing women on the East Coast.
7:  Producing my first large event with Red Bull
8:  My nephew saying my name for the first time “Shel shel”
9:  Launching HC in 3 cities
10: The special moments shared with the people closest to me in 2011.  It has definitely been a transitional year.

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